Dec 26

Darkness

I was terrified of the dark when I was little.

I imagined hands reaching out from underneath the depths of my bed just beyond where the covers met the floor. Something hidden in the shadows that was ready to reach out and grab onto my ankles. Or perhaps something hiding in my barely-cracked closet tucked behind my clothes and shoes and stuffed animals stored away. Being a worrier since birth didn’t help matters. (though I should mention that we worriers have the very best imaginations  since we can imagine just about anything and everything happening.)

But now I have a respect for the darkness.

Two weeks ago I was hiking up the ski mountain in the early morning.  I usually wear a headlamp on these dark mornings. A small bit of illumination to help me not focus on the dark around the edges.

But that morning, I decided not to. I don’t know why, cause like I said, I don’t like the dark.

But I did. I clicked off the light and started to hike.

The air was crisp, my lungs burned, and my legs ached as I took one step after another loaded down with the weight of my heavy ski’s and ski boots and the backpack on my back.

And then I looked up.

A star dove across the sky in an arc.

Then another.

And another.

And another.

Five times, I found myself gasping at the sky above me.

Then I started a middle grade novel called, A Tale Dark and Grimm by Adam Gidwitz. On one of the beginning pages are these words:

You see, the land of Grimm can be a harrowing place. But it is worth exploring. For, in life, it is in the darkest zones one finds the brightest beauty and the most luminous wisdom.

I thought of my shooting stars and smiled.

I don’t think I’ll ever hike up the mountain with my headlamp on again.

I’ll welcome the dark and search it’s blackness for that brightest beauty.

One Response to “Darkness”

  • anne says:

    love it, linds! sounds beautiful…

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